I'm Very Bendy

Me (8:08:23 PM): omg how gross
Rob 143 (8:08:28 PM): what
Me (8:08:37 PM): i just smelled my foot
Me (8:08:41 PM): i just got home from tennis
Rob 143 (8:08:43 PM): geez nam
Me (8:08:45 PM): haha
Me (8:08:53 PM): ain't i hilarious
Rob 143 (8:08:56 PM): you are always good for a laugh
Me (8:09:08 PM): some people say i am crazy
Rob 143 (8:09:17 PM): if you could smell your own butt.. i bet you would
Me (8:09:20 PM): i think i am just normal and everyone else is lame
Me (8:09:24 PM): i tried
Rob 143 (8:09:27 PM): haha
Rob 143 (8:09:29 PM): too much
Me (8:09:47 PM): the benefits of smelling the butt isn't worth all the pain
Rob 143 (8:10:04 PM): hahaha...
Rob 143 (8:10:09 PM): omg
Rob 143 (8:10:22 PM): only you would put so much thought into smelling your own butt
Me (8:10:46 PM): haha
Rob 143 (8:10:58 PM): i think that last line is Nam's Blog worthy
Me (8:11:12 PM): haha

Mortal Combat

Recently Jack, Ky and myself had a conversation surrounding our own mortality. Here are the stances we each hold regarding death:

Jack: Curious about death
Ky: Deathly afraid of death
Myself: Embraces death

As I've grown older, I've learned to embrace death more. After our talks about mortality, I realized that I believe in an afterlife, I don't think after death there is oblivion. Death doesn't end life, there is a life after life. Ky made the point that he enjoys life too much to let it go (thus fears death), which made me wonder, do I enjoy my life if I embrace death the way I do? After thinking more about that I realized that the fact I embrace death doesn't necessary mean I do not enjoy my life, I just don't see life ending once death occurs. The life I enjoy will continue on with or without a physical body.

People are always amazed by the fact I don't see myself living past 65 or sometimes I think 40. Most of the time people translate that to I need help or I am disturbed or I don't appreciate life. None of those are my reasons for why I see myself dying young or why I don't mind dying young. I just think since it is going to happen might as well be sooner than later, how I've always approached "bad" scenarios.

This post isn't suppose to give the impression that if someone pointed a gun in my face I wouldn't be scared. Of course I would be scared but not because of the death that would followed if shot, but as Jack and I told Ky "the pain that would follow." Sure if you are dead you wouldn't feel pain anymore, but I am sure there be a couple of seconds after the shot that you would feel the pain. I fear pain not death.

And that is the death of this post.