It's good to be in love. As of today, I am in love with my life. For the past couple of months, I've been a dick. Mad/depressed at everything, never really being happy with my life. There were moments where I was blindly happy, but that faded like a two shot buzz. So to those effected (you know who you are) I am sorry.
For my entire life, I have never been 100% happy with my life. There has always been something holding me back. For majority of my life, it was my lack of a romantic life that caused me to be so disstress with my life. But this year has brought me some form of romantic life. And that has lifted this burden I felt has brought me down all these years. No longer do I seek a companion, it just ain't my thing right now. Maybe as I grow older, I will learn this "game" but now I just ain't in the mood. I am not bitter, I think I have just experienced enough to kill that naive, hopeless romantic Nam. This Nam is more attune to the world of love and when it comes it comes. So you assume that with such a burden lifted, I learn to be more happy with my life ... but I wasn't.
Soon after I became financially unstable and became face-to-face with my financial problems. It was my financial problem that has caused me so much stress the past couple of months. I kept thinking about it, and it would depress me. I would always think, I just need a full time job, I know that would help me out of this mess. I soon graduated, but with no full time job. I search and search, came close but nothing. Here I was a recent college grad, with no full time job, and a debt. (Yeah I know like all college grads.) But this hardship was new to me, in my life things has always gone smoothly for me. There was always a plan, but now here I was with no direction. A job was suppose to follow but I had no job. What is wrong with me? I soon began to doubt myself and all that would go in my head was "No Money, No Job." Thinking about the situation kept causing me more and more stress and I unloaded it on my friends. But NOW, now I have a second job, which means more income. That should help with my debt, I feel and know it will. This relieves me a ton. And the job itself is somewhat enjoyable, it is somewhat in my career field. So plus to that.
So things are finally looking up, I think I can finally try to be happy, 100% happy. Lets see where I go from here. But to begin this new outlook on life I decided to ... shave. It's good to be in love.
