So my birthday is coming up, and instead of getting gifts I probably would appreciate but not necessary would have gotten for myself, why not get me something I want and yet it still can be a surprise. So head over here and go to the wish list section and type in my full name. Select from the vast selection and surprise me on which one you chose. You all have a nice day now.

So it is the day after Sunday, and the new and exciting thing in my life, did not pan out as expected. What this new and exciting thing was, was the hopes for an actual relationship, but after two failed attempts in actually meeting, I thought that isn't working. Instead of going into details about my relationship with this guy, David, I will say after telling him that we shouldn't pursue anything anymore, I found out that David was exactly what I hope he wouldn't be, a 19 year old. Though he may be graduating Berkeley next year and have a job lined up for him once he is done (which is all good, and what I found appealing about him), he still thinks and acts like a 19 year old. And Nam isn't down with that.

But I must thank David for making realized that I am not picky, as many of you say I am. I was always afraid that maybe I was being picky in who I dated and who I wanted for a boyfriend. But after seeing how I still could fall for a guy even though he didn't meet some of my expectations showed me I ain't picky, I just know what I want and what can make me happy. In this, I feel you can't really call anyone picky, unless you are Jerry Seinfeld's character in Seinfeld (now that was picky).

So once again, another failed attempt, but for some odd reason I am not depressed. I somewhat feel relieved. I also don't have an urge to find someone anymore, maybe I am burnt out on dating, but whatever this feeling is over me, I don't feel pressure on myself anymore. Pressure to be with someone or find someone. As David put it last night, I am 22, still young, and I will find someone. Maybe I will, maybe I won't, but whatever the case, I can say I tried. Now you all have a nice day.