So I am at work listening to my mp3 player, when Michelle Branch's Breathe comes on. I love the feeling I get when I listen to the song, something about the song gives me a feeling of ... HOPE. I know the song doesn't really have anything to do with hope, but that is what the song gives me. I don't know why. Maybe it is the ending of the song when she belts out "You'll see everything is alright/Everything is alright/If I just breathe ... breathe." Just another entry of me expressing my current feelings. I will leave off with another lyric from the song.

"So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real"

I would like to just take this time to thank Neal Desai for helping me with my anger problem yesterday. He did his normal, unrelated to my problem stunt and it worked. He made me laugh, made me cry, and by the end of it all, I had no remembrance of what I was feeling. Thank you Neal Desai.

I don't know why but at this very moment I feel very anger and unaccomplished. This is a very odd feeling, I have never gone through this before, this sudden mood change with no cause. What am I angry at, what accomplishment has gone undone? From feeling amazingly happy with my life yesterday to this feeling tonight? What is it? Could it be the fact I am tired of these gay Asian men, who are only into white men, or the fact that when I finally met an Asian man, he is an asshole? What is it? Is it the fact school is near the end of the semester and I feel I have a ton of work that I just don't feel like doing? I am lost but have all this passionate rage right now. What is it? AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!