- After reading Jack's latest post, i guess it is time to maybe give some light why i have been angry as of late. I just recently stop seeing a guy I have been seeing since June. Yes, you maybe wondering when i had the time to see this guy, or how come i never mentioned him. Well i always imagined that when i found someone i would just date him secretly, just to avoid all the pressures you guys may or may not put on me. After all this would be my very first relationship. Well lets just say that things didn't go according to plan with this guy, and actually went sore bad. I am sorry if i have been an asshole as of late, i guess i was venting in the wrong direction. As for my remark last night jack, i just didn't like how you responded to my question. You could have easily have said "i don't remember," but instead i get this snobby answer "How should I know." Like as if how dare i ask such a question. But whatever. That is all i will say about this matter.

- I am so angry at my life right now. Everything makes me angry. A simple plan to go rafting makes me angry, my co-worker coming back early from her vacation makes me angry, my brother coming into my room makes me angry, life makes me angry. I need to relieve this anger, but i cannot cause i have no cure.

- Got some mail from SJSU, and in it was some little note informing all home football games are free with a valid student ID card. My first thought was how sad, that State has to offer free games just to increase attendance. Along with my mail, was my newest issue of Maxim. On the cover is Mariah Carey, and i must say she looks damn good in her photos. She really has gotten down how to take her photos.

- I want to watch Freddy vs. Jason.

- Well Vegas was awesome, probably one of the best trips ever. Actually it is the best trip i have ever take. I could go and explain all the events and details but why bother. Just know i had a blast, and I came out on top. Oh yeah.

- Well today, in my distress of how i was playing during tennis, i slammed my racquet on the ground, and apparently that broke my racquet. Damn it. I don't know what i am more mad about, the fact i broke the racquet, the fact i just strung the racquet before i went off to play, the fact that i broke the good condition racquet and not the one that has bad grommet holes. All in all, all the facts make me pissed. But on a happier side, or rather something other than the breaking racquet news, i got to try out the Wilson H Tour. Pretty good racquet.

- Got my free backpack and flash drive from Gateway today. The backpack is a ugly piece of junk, but i will use it. And the flash drive is awesome, so easy to transfer. No need for an external floppy drive.

- Ever wonder what happened to Kurt Camron, well apparently he makes guest stints on religious forums on some christian channel. Man the pastor's opening commentary was quite hilarious. It makes me wonder, am i truly evil. The pastor opened up the whole show by saying, "Tonight show will be great, the DEVIL will lose every battle we discuss tonight. God will triumph." Something about that made me crack up, man hilarious. It is hilarious cause it sounds so pathetic. Then the pastor went on about how God loves everyone, all the rejects, losers and what not. That comment just confirmed my theory that religion is just a bunch of hypocrisy. "God loves everyone" yet at the same time it is that same religious that teaches people to go against homosexual lifestyle and condemn them. If God loves rejects and losers but yet not homos, what the hell does that make me. Fuck religion! Love thy neighbor my ass. Man i hate religion, but i love being gay.

- On a lighter note, I got my laptop today, and i love it. Sure it put me in the debt, but i love it none the less.

- Leaving to Vegas tonight, this morning, however you want to see it. The point is I am leaving for Vegas, woo whoo!!!! More money wasted.

- So summer school is finally over. Now my summer vacation can finally begin. Oh yeah one whole week till fall semester starts. Got to love it. Oh well i will take whatever comes to me. As for my QBA final, it was pretty hard, but i feel i did ok for someone who sleeps everyday in class. Ah no more commitments till next next Monday. Feels great, even it is for a short while.

- Well finally watched one episode of FLCL, and Jack is right. That is one hip, wierd ass anime. So hip-wierd, it is worthy of me trying to catch it more often. The anime made me wonder, do i even understand the english language, cause i was confused all the way through.

- So my winning streak continues, even after my own commentary curse. Beat Pung in Jumble, and almost won in doubles. Lost the first set, 3-6, but came back to win the second 6-3. We ended the match at 6-6, cause Thao had to leave. But Jason and I had several match points during that 12th game of the third set. Who knows what could have happened during the tie break. So i still feel i am on a winning streak.

- Time for one of my serious post. My lonliness is at its all time high tonight. Reading all these articles about the stars being out tonight, makes me yearn for a significant other bad. To want someone to just hold me in their arms, in bed. And on a night like this, to have someone to just look at the stars with. I yearn for that feeling so bad it hurts. And listening to the Aslyn song isn't helping. Man am i so pathetic, but this is what i feel, and this is all i can do. Funny how amidst all my school work, and the whole Vegas trip, lonliness has a way of distracting me from all that could keep me occupied. But i must be patient and wait. I can only imagine the cure for this lonliness, is a medicine of great joy. So i wait, wait i shall.

- I am on a winning streak in everything i do. Have won the past 5 sets i have played in tennis. Might be longer but i cannot remember. Beat Alex in two sets, beat Du in one set, and won one set of doubles today. My winning streak, just doesn't extend to just tennis, I currently lead Pung in Jumble by two. Still think, the rules are not fair, should be how long it takes us to do the whole thing, not just solve the end jumble. But still, i lead the competition by 2. But after this post, i bet you i will start losing. Damn commentary curse.

- One more day of summer school, then it is off to Vegas. I am feeling the anticipation.

- In my mood to find a new artist, I came upon this. I think I may have stumbled upon my next cd purchase.

-HAHA to the prior note.

- After last night, i thought my theory and wonderment, had been answered. But after talking to Kim during breakfast, maybe i was wrong in my theory. Still lost.

- Played tennis with Alex this morning. Was warming up pretty crappy so i knew it wasn't going to be a good day of tennis. I am starting to think that there is a correlation between how well i will play and how well i start off rallies. If my balls fall short when i start rallies, then most likely i will play pretty bad. So after 30 mins worth of warming up, Alex and I decide to play two sets. Started off pretty bad trailing 0-3, before i came back 3-3. It was then 4-5 with Alex serving for the set, until i broke him and finished the set 7-5. Was pretty proud of myself on how i came back. The second set almost started nearly identical, with me trailing 1-2, i broke back to make it 2-2, at which point i thought to myself, "Ok Nam you are going to take this set 6-2". Next thing you know it was 2-5, with Alex serving for the set once again. In the end, i won the set 7-5. Once again i surprised myself. Nice 7-5 7-5 victory.

- Washed my car, only for it to dirty up again, cause i am parked outside in the guest parking. Great.

- Went to Fry's, Stoneridge with Pung. Was a nice get away from home. Our hunt for electronic taboo was a failure. After our outting we ate at Chili's cause i hadn't had that for awhile. Thinking about it, it was not very good. Pung and I had some nice conversation about relationships, fears, and fetishes.

- Artist: Aslyn
Song: That's When I Love You

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway

[Chorus]:
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

[Chorus]

Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you can do will make me change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

I hope to be able to relate to this song one day, with my significant other. But as i listen to the lyrics, this guy she is singing about seems sort of like an asshole/jerk. So do i really want to have an asshole/jerk boyfriend. Hmmm. But still, the song has a nice thought.

- In my search for a new wallpaper, ideally a tennis one, I came upon a nice Mandy Moore one. I am so infatuated with Mandy Moore it makes me wonder. As a gay man, is it right for me to be drawn to a female as much as i do? Not like i WANT TO BE Mandy Moore, i just adore her so much. Oh well, I love Mandy and i think she is a talent.

- Finally finished my Econ class at De Anza, and i am so relieved. No more crappy racist teacher, no more crappy boring lectures, no more crappy uncomfortable seats. I will honestly say i will not miss De Anza, far drive for nothing, not one single hot guy in my class, sucks. I always need someone to look at, what else would get me through the day. Probably the only thing i will miss is the drive home from De Anza. Just love driving so fast down 280 in the far left lane with no dumb driver in my way. Why i drove so fast is beyond me. But since i will no longer be driving to De Anza, I guess it is back to my 20 miles per gallon. Damn when i bought this car, i thought i wouldn't care about mileage. Well apparently i do.

- Two more QBA classes at State. Man these next two days are going to be dreadful. Damn boring ass class, at least there is hot white guy, and a cute white guy. Wonder how i am doing in the class, teacher has yet to return our midterm. Find out that first session grades were posted, and I got a B in my other class from the first summer session. I wasn't surprised, could have gotten an A i think if i had tried. Oh well you snooze you lose.

- One week till Vegas.